I Sit Here And Realize...

My Life Is Going To Waste. I Have Potential I Do, But For Some Reason I Won't Live Up To It. Maybe It's Because I'm Scared To Be Like Everyone Else? Or Maybe Its Because I Feel As If I Don't Do Anything With Life, Then I Can't Fail...? I Am Sick Of Being No Body, I Wanna Go Places. I Don't Want To Die A No One, I Want To Die Someone People Will Remember For Years. I Mean, I Dropped Out Of High School, I Have No Job, I Live With My Grandmother And I Am In An Unsuccessful Band. Nothing Looks Up, I Try And Stay Positive But Why? Who Am I Wearing This Fake Smile For? It Hurts My Face To Wear Such A Mask Everyday. I Don't Want It To Be Fake, It Just Is, Trust Me I Wish That One Day I Could Take Off This Mask To Realize That Underneath The Mask Is A genuine Smile, Now That Would Make My Day. But For Now I Live In Wonderland Of Sorts, Created To Keep Me Smiling, One Day I Will Find The White Rabbit And It Will Tell Me Where To Go, I Will Get Out And Realize Everything Is Perfect.... :/